In Which, I Am Both Jenny & Johnny [a proclamation on my mind]

This post is for a unique part of the population. The over thinking, sometimes anxious, but always 'all in' type. (if you just stopped to wonder if maybe *you* are an over thinker, you are. Keep reading.) If you don't fall in this category this post might not interest you, but my brain post from the other night is far less overreaching - and it's fun, you can check it out here.

I had to get some things done today, things I've been wanting to get done for a long time. I have these projects in my head and since my wheels are always turning, my list keeps growing. But since I am an over thinker I often plan, and re plan, and think, and quite often I am too overwhelmed to actually 'do'. So today, I shut down my brain and barreled through so much. No kidding I cleaned, reorganized the dishes in the kitchen, moved furniture, re shelved all my kids books, and a few other things... I checked so much off my list it actually seems psychotic.

Such a wonderful thing to be able to shut down and just go for it... then it was time to reboot.

*KaBOOM*

I hopped in the car to go get my kids from school and my mind just came racing back to me in all its passionate glory. I had My Chemical Romance rocking on my radio, as usual, and I was listening to my anthem - Bulletproof Heart (which I am sure is directed towards my brain as I am clearly both Jenny & Johnny in this song - at least they make up a good portion of my chaotic brain). And guess what - I literally had half this blog post written in my head while I was singing along to the radio and going over what I had left to do today... all while beaming triumphantly at the day's success.

That's when it hit me - slow down! Not the car, no, my thoughts. Every once-in-awhile I just embrace the fact that I must be bipolar or experience mania to some degree. I get so ready to get stuff done that I go all in until I realize I'd better ease up or I am going to Thelma & Louise it right off a cliff... so to speak (see how I keep comparing myself to 2 people at once?). This feeling comes and goes, it doesn't bother me except when I wonder if my kids are thinking "which mama are we getting today?"

But that's just my brain being dramatic again. My mind is a daily lesson on balance. Balancing the peace with the chaos, the patience with the action, the good with the bad. Practice will eventually make perfect-ish and I love to just go with the flow of things.

So to all you over thinkers remember this: Sometimes you need a plan! And sometimes you need to shut down just to stand up! Master your mindful craft and remember - you rock... and roll. See, it's always a 2 for 1 with me! ;)