I think I'll make my first post an introduction to my brain, as well as why I am choosing to share my thoughts with the online world. I am a woman who, on many occasions, likes to second guess myself or just assume I'm crazy. I literally have a battle going on inside myself. My brain functions at this level of chaos that I can only explain as either a kindergarten classroom or the supermarket the night before a holiday. But my heart is completely wrapped up in this ideal peaceful serene setting. Let's say, the way it sounds *after* a thunderstorm is over. :) A nerdier way of putting it would be: my mind sees the Joker's point, my heart is all Batman. (Yes, I'll be referencing Batman frequently, you've been warned.)
Anyway, my family has been going through a tough year on so many different levels. I recently said to my husband "this sucks." He asked "What sucks?" To which I replied "pick a topic, it sucks from every angle." Now, if you know me at all, I try to stay pretty positive, but when I spiral I'm worse than SpongeBob. So I had to stop and evaluate, and reevaluate myself. I decided that things are going to be this way for awhile, we are working so hard and it will get better. But right now, it literally 'is what it is' and I can either embrace it and face it, or complain. I. Hate. Complaining. ( I don't hate a lot of things, I'm sure I'll blog a list one day. :)
So I began really making an effort to be myself and that's when 2 things happened:
- I began enjoying life so much more.
- I found out who my real friends are.
That second one was hard. It hurts to be rejected because of who you are, who you love, what your values are, or because you acknowledge that Batman could obviously kick Ironman's butt. (See what I did there.) But after many shades of confusion, I can give but one piece of advice: Just be.
Which brings us to why I am blogging. If there's a chance that someone, somewhere will read this and realize they aren't crazy, I'll have done my job. Also, I love writing. Thanks for sticking through to the end of my first post. You are welcome to stop by anytime. <3
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